I imagine you like a haggard, like I was wrong to give you comfort you want the moon that you want is not this glorious sunshine baby ah do not need air I do not understand do not matter to me I want to demonstrate is the sun is just another Baby Sunflower in the sun shining in the sun particularly smile a bit tired
I carried my legs, crouched in a corner, try not to let some sunshine reflection of his own body, blocking the TV drama mossy back from time to time emitting a decadent taste of the wall. Looked through the windows of the dilapidated shed light coming in, and those busy mortal beings, I think I really relaxed, you can hide the room, not in the sunshine sweating work. But I would rather work, I do not want to have to hide the sun that even people. No, it is the ghost. I heard someone running up the stairs to creak a lengthy voice, this old house is already dilapidated, covered with cobwebs everywhere, step would hear the creaking noise, dust falling from the ceiling, the sun Under floating in the air, then slowly precipitated.
before the year-old boy my brother. My dear brother. I am the most important person.
floating in the air.
do not know what this means, in short, is not a good sign. Tight against the wall to go, precisely,Bailey UGG boots, is floating. Escape every sunny place. It make me disappear.
I hide under the shadow of a building, watching out for flying kites. He was happy running in the grass, sweating. I admire him, happy to run in the sun, do not worry will disappear, do not have to dodge every sun, do not stand in the shadow of something else to run but not below, not to only at night, was said to harm Ghost man. I'm just a ghost, the specter of an ordinary, run into the sun will disappear, not to mention harmful. Ghost is the most sad, heaven and hell, the soul of the people would not be hosting ghost, and I, actually it is.
. At that moment, I really want to go on the grass, enjoy the sun bathing, what disappears, what ghost, I do not I do not I flatly do not, I just want to sunlight, warm sunshine in the body. I do not know how long it does not enjoy the sunshine, and it is so beautiful, so remote and so elusive. The memory of the sun, is with a fragrance, it is the kind of incense, which is my mother told me.
I do not think of anymore. I do not want the scars that go far touch, I want to forget injuries, thorough and forgotten.
to the cloud was.
I wanted to run over and lifted him up, but not because he fell of the place is in the sun. I can not go, it will go away, I do not want to disappear, do not want to. I would also like to stay in this world. I do not even let go of a chance to do ghost. up and smiled at me.
the fine. But I know all this is that he fitted out, put me, and he did not want me to worry about him because I did not want to blame him. Something he definitely something besides, he was just a year-old child, be so small to learn to hide the pain.
until the evening. Grandpa did not come back. Afraid to ask me out, Grandpa is not an accident, and I smile answered him, no, no, Grandpa promised to come back at night so he'll be back at night. Ming sensible nodded. Back to the room and went to sleep.
I have been looking out, saw him back to his room and shut the door, wooden planks creaked slightly under his feet. Only to find that he has been shaking, I do not know why they should deceive a child, why should deceive ourselves, so I laughed, and laughed very bright, as bright as the sun, but no one saw, the sun is behind the endless darkness. Right. Is dark.
without sunshine. Even the stars and the moon at all. The activities of my time. But today, I do not want to move, because those who have forgotten the things that, as if rooted to the ground, close your eyes, vivid memories, that thought the wounds had healed, but another split in the night, was heartbreaking pain. Ah, those painful memories but also passed, though I do not want to.
long, long time ago, I was a simple happy child. I have a home. A father, mother. I love that kind of dad who flavor of tobacco; also love my father with his short beard on my face; love my mother let me lean on her lap, listen to her distant mother took me to the legend of love in the sun Walking; love my mother took me to a walk in the sun. I think I love the sun it, love it according to the body warm feeling, it is impossible for any lighting equipment, instead of heating the warmth, love lying in his garden looking at blue sky and the sun shines on the lawn to the body, Sajin his pupil, the heart all secrets are exposed when the feeling. Although I now know he is wrong, sunny world, hiding many secrets, is people simply can not find the secret. But I'm happy it at least to enjoy a happy and just fine.
However, happiness is always short, who knows what will happen next.
like sunshine, people do not see the hidden secret.
then, is my parents home to wait for good food.
then, that I waited a long time they did not come back.
Then again, my uncle received a phone call that my parents something was wrong.
then again ... ... and then did a.
happiness has been fixed in my father shut the door the moment.
At that moment, the guardian angel wings of happiness left me forever.
six
like fairy tales, I suddenly become orphans. Left alone in the house a large empty room. I miss the happiness, once the home. The sun shone through the large windows, the empty house in the shadow cast a bleak, according to the body, feel cold.
large a house, is a set of four. But before I'm 18, can not be independently owned with a house of. So, with residence outside the aunt, smoothly moved into my house. No, it is my house. Aunt flood of people flooded in, occupied the living room, bedroom. I rushed to the smallest compartment to live. My computer, my bookcase, my piano, my all, once those are the things I now use the so-called cousin.
I often feel like a fairy tale Cinderella. Our destiny is so similar. I would like Cinderella, the prince met the same, and then live a happy life. But the fairy tale is a fairy tale after all, a perfect fairy tale ending that only have. Cinderella is always the real Cinderella.
sun will shine bright, and even some glare. I do not know, this kind of life will continue to go on it? I ask God, and then heard him say, will not, a few days,cheap UGG boots, you can go to your parents there. But what happened next, let me know, the original God will lie ah, for me the answer, perhaps, but is God pleased, a little joke, a stupid enough to pay my life willing to believe joke.
I accidentally broke a vase. Aunt meal provoke chatter. This kind of life I do not want to go on, so a fit of anger ran out, I know, my aunt does not matter, she is not my favorite, but my house.
sunny. I do not know why, regardless of where the sun regardless of the time regardless of mood as bright. It seems that everything has nothing to do with the sun. crossing a road in
, I heard a high pitched sound of sharp braking, and then I saw the pair panicked eyes, and a splash of blood blossoming flowers. I smiled. Very happy smile. The kind of smile, since their parents died after never exposed before. I heard his faint voice: I felt empty, that is the feeling of the soul from the body, and then? I do not know. I do not know anything. Do not ask me, do not, do not ask me, I do not know anything. Do not know ah.
... ...
voice-over: the soul of Joseph Ouyang met a head in white with a halo, he shook his head and walked away. Then the soul of Joseph and blown a big door,bailey UGG boots, waved a black messenger, stand on the street, trying to find the shadow of their parents, after all, nothing, I do not believe ask yourself: I believe, close your eyes over and over again, and then opened, and that it is only illusion fills is an illusion, this is not true, not true, not ah! But the fact ruthless told me that there is neither heaven nor hell, or earth, where the accident occurred, and the difference is just that people see me, meet me, my body can get through, but my body , even a little white is transparent.
Oh, originally I was dead, ah, it just died. What is it dead? Why, I did not go to heaven, then what the hell, why the hell do not even take me? Why? Am I doing something wrong? What am I doing wrong ah? What am I doing wrong ah? I cried, issued a hoarse voice, want to cry but no tears flow, O, the specter of even the tears were not, I self-deprecating laugh.
original, I will be abandoned as a child anyway ah.
eight
become ghosts that moment, my world, quiet, and would have been quiet down.
because it is the specter,UGG shoes, since then, and I miss the sun, even though I was so so in love with the sun. It seems so close, but you can feel the warmth, and, that the sun unique fragrance. Oh, maybe I love God is to love all of my stuff back to you, Mom and Dad first, then the sun, Oh, I love the things he recovered, then he will receive what? I swear, never fall in love with anything to anyone. Never again. Later, I found that this oath is stupid.
I no longer walk in the streets. But hiding in the shadow of a buildings, observation, listening to the voice of the worlds noisy. Although this world is so noisy, busy, but to my ears at once quiet, no sound is, I hold pregnant Yiqiang stand, just like is an outsider, one in the game has been out, the only people who watch other people play.
nine
I only met three people who can see me. A different person, Taoist priest. That day, I still Yiqiang standing, watching the sky and all living things busy laughing, laughing over there after the passing of a heart feeling sad, cry, they cry, and then continue to self-deprecating laugh. He passed by me when suddenly stalled, slowly turned to the Bank a ceremony, I heard him spit out the mouth clear words: Right, I am very lonely. Indeed. Me. Was. Alone. Independence. Then I started laughing, and laughing, I would like to see if people can stop my voice, then it will be an occasion of laughter resounded through the clouds. Very hoarse, very harsh, trace alone. I do not want nor should have never thrown but can not can not afford to throw away the loneliness.
second. Was prescribed. Third. Grandpa is out.
meet next day, the New Year. I do not like so lively atmosphere. Red lanterns, red hat, red couplets, there are crackling red firecrackers, especially glare of the sun on the streets, and one by one, like sunlight, bright smile, and there were numerous snow falls. So, I hid in an old house, in my opinion, the house should be unoccupied. House is a long time ago, and though very old, but a large, wooden two-story villa. Rotten windows and doors, many places are termites Zhukong, Zhang out of the wall piece blue cranberry, moss through the corrosion, the wall, like a block of dark spots, and as many green flowers, open in the yellowed wall. Is the case, from the appearance, still have a dignified appearance.
I found a great place windows, escape the sun, Yi Qiang, sit down, tuck, and fell asleep. In fact, I did not find that the large picture window, and my family before, exactly the same.
dream, I heard someone call: I stared, and asked: I think if I had tears, now must be tears of the bar.
long time, then said: He is the parents in a foreign land far away, his grandfather left to raise, Ming never remember their parents look like, the only parents the impression that they will sink to many money every month. I do not know why they could see me, only know that he is very happy, always throw it alone can not afford to, finally, can reduce a little, so I'm not going to Heaven and laughing, but at the Ming and grandfather, a quiet smile, and then Q:
another night without sleep.
who has woke up.
grandfather did not return overnight.
deceive ourselves again I would do next, all right all right, Grandpa will be back. So we sat in front of every day, waiting for Grandpa back. Day. Two days. Three days. Four days. Days.
a car in front of the house. People come in three looks fierce. Two men and a woman. They say so in front, your grandfather died, in your parents come to pick you up, you must go with us to the orphanage. I cry at the side: shouted back at me: children like it, Had watched the house, the door was shut, and then a woman on the door seal affixed greatly.
cycle time, memory began to fall, I love the people will eventually leave me.
this day, is the New Year, I met exactly one year tomorrow.
second
guess I really had, and God took away my love to all. I'm not contented, I do not the last people I love away from me, Chenzheyese protection, I came to the orphanage, in a picture of the bed looking out on the scene. When I was almost desperate, the last one in bed, I saw clearly, his waking hours. Saw me, sat up and shoved, shouted at me: head, facing said: , Ming's voice echoed: , tomorrow, tomorrow's parents will pick him. I'm waiting in the dark. Never so, no such expectation dawn, there is no such expectations. Thirteen
I hid in a container, is transported to the airport. Perhaps now the sun is shining, but I can not see. Discharge, I saw a plane take off. It is clear that by doing aircraft.
rushed to the airport regardless of all the central, watching planes take off more in the blue sky to go farther, I smiled against the aircraft, facing God, and shouted: I love people! you did not receive him away! I finally win it! , father and next, Grandpa, smiled at me in the sky, there is a feeling of light, the body in the slowly melting snow into a blue chip, there were numerous falls, my soul, in the sun, and finally, get salvation.
I smiled. Very bright. Brighter than the sun also. I can see everything at me, said: International Airport, the snow under a blue ... ...
Claustrophobia, fog non-fog; middle of the night, the dawn to go. How much time to such illusion? To appear in hunting
Chaoyun
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