a wonderful game

a wonderful game. You can trick, pretend yourself to anywhere you choose. Its a very easy & effective tool. I'm surprised more of us dont use it. Without detail I listened to someone who is prepared to go against there own personal beliefs and go with someone else's. They're safe in the knowledge that its unlikely to work but heh, they will be proved right so its all good right? Hello, welcome to the world of stupidity. Imagine that your life isn't that great. Your smart enough to see the problems. Your even smart enough to know the solution wont knock your door down without any trying on your part. But heh, why worry. Wrap the not so great life up, put it on the high shelf and create a deflective problem. The deflective problem cannot be solved by the way. okay so maybe acceptance hasn't been reached. maybe your even smart enough to know; there will never be a solution. Except thats your own secret.Whilst your looking for the elusive solution remember that life; you know the one that you should be sorting?? O your to busy? To distracted? Your to what? Smart, I dont think so. If smart had hit you would realise you cannot ever change anything that has passed. You cannot go back and write yourhistory in any better a way. That future is going to come and when it does where's your life? Ah, its in the fkn box.

�?�?Okay frustration over. I just see a woman with the greatest of potential and she just doesnt get that she is as worthy as everyone else to find her happy. There is only 3 things needed fundamentaly in life. Food, shelter and love. im not talking soppy dependant shit. i'm talking about genuine love that has to start with self. I greet myself everyday with a smile, cos I'm worth that; we all are. Its a bit like taking pride in your own appearance. i know many wont agree but if you dont I just dont get how you can feel good about anything else in life. Everything begins and ends with self. If it doesn't, if someone is greater than that - there's a major problem. Okay i'm allowing the dependant parental thingy in but nothing else. I'm remembering the story I read online this week about a man who's wife and child were drowing. He had to choose which one to save. he saved his wife. His 11yr old son died. If I was his wife, I would never forgive him. He would be dead to me, just likehis son. That would be a horrific choice but there would be no contest. When I knew my daughter Jessica was dying I prayed with all my heart that she would live and I would die. It took a long time for me to forgive God for not granting my prayer and I remember I couldnt get my head around it. 5 kids later and I got it.